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So two dreams I had in my life were permanently taken away from me due to my trauma and addiction.
1: Join the PBR . I was so good and so close to join then addiction, and I illness took it all from me .
2: Own my own private security company.
I was amazing private security officer contacter.

I lost everything and I have health issues that was caused from years of addiction, abuse self mutilation harm., sexual abuse and rape..

So because I want help others and hope I could give anyone some type of understanding and help.that if you anyone you know possible goiy through or gone through what I been through . To know your not only and there someone that will listen only or speak from experience. I will not tell you what to do but give suggestion. I lost so much and friends family and seen people died in front of me in my arms and have to end covered there blood I couldn’t save them cause I was in addiction and suicidal my self . I will admit in the first month in Burlington recovery home I tried to take my life 3 times . Was stop all 3 times .

When I first started to feel as I was being ignored,and all the attention was focused on others and themselves, being left out on family gatherings, out of family crisis or situations. Then when it all became realistic not just my assumption. I’m seeing proof .I used drugs as way to cope and way to avoid the consequences of encountering the painful and fear and the response from them and my interactions with them. So I then made a decision that if they don’t want me around and include me in anything. I will then make sure I completely become non existent . Become just a stranger. Shut them out get far away as I can since it shows I’m not part of the stone family anymore. Feeling abandoned and neglected and unloved worthless man . So I would stay in the addiction comfort and a new safe reality where I don’t ever have to feel or deal with anymore pain. I can shut down only feel happiness and use the anger as a way to show anyone that I’m to be pushed around, I don’t care about anyone and cold heart you have to watch what you say around me if you don’t want me to haze, criticize, you..

It’s not easy to stay clean and sober after struggling with addiction. Achieving seven months of sobriety is an important milestone for anyone, but even more so for those dealing with addiction. Alongside the challenges of the addiction itself, those with co-occurring mental health issues such as PTSD (post-traumatic stress disorder) must also address the root causes of their trauma to achieve long-term recovery.

The trauma that can lead to addiction is often deeply rooted in an individual’s personal history. Finding healthy ways to confront and manage these traumatic experiences can be the first step to recovery from addiction. It is important for those struggling with PTSD and addiction to build resilience and develop skills to help them cope with difficult emotions. Cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) can help individuals understand and gain insight into their emotional reactions to traumatic memories. With the support of a therapist, CBT can help them recognize unhelpful patterns of thinking and develop healthier coping strategies.

Experiencing flashbacks and physical reactions to trauma can be difficult to manage without treatment. Having a safe place to talk and the guidance of a mental health professional can be invaluable in helping individuals recognize and process their emotions, as well as develop coping skills. Through this process, individuals can begin to improve their overall mental health and gain the strength and stability needed to maintain sobriety.

Reaching the milestone of seven months of sobriety is a major accomplishment for anyone dealing with addiction. It is also an opportunity to review and reassess progress and to reflect on the journey so far. It is important to recognize this accomplishment and to celebrate successes, no matter how small. Along with professional support, this affirmation can help individuals stay motivated as they continue to work toward lasting recovery from addiction and co-occurring disorder such as PTSD.
Part 2

The experience of being abused, abandoned, homeless, suicidal, and dealing with addiction and being a male who has been sexually assaulted can have a profound and life-changing effect on a person. For those of us that have been through it, we know how difficult it can be to come out the other end in one piece. But it is possible to overcome these challenges and create a new life for ourselves.

Take for example a person I know, who was adopted at the age of 18 months and was exposed to an unknown amount of abuse in their young life. They lived on the streets for years , and were intensely suicidal. This person fought a long battle with addiction, and after years of struggling they were able to find help, and were eventually able to find a way to break free from their addictions.

The person had also been sexually assaulted and had to learn how to trust again, and also how to feel love and to be happy. It was a long and difficult journey, but with help from friends, family, and professionals, this person was able to rediscover their strength and find hope in life once again.

Today, this person is 7 months clean, and is actively helping others through their own recovery journey. The individual is using their experience of overcoming immense challenges to help others. They have been able to create a new life for themselves, and inspire others to search for strength in their own lives.

No matter how difficult it may seem, it is possible to overcome these challenges and to create a better life for yourself. It may take time and may require help from others, but it is possible to find hope and healing.